I do not believe I am entirely ready for this my dear.

so I haven’t really had time to post. ughh. don’t really wanna vent it all out on here though. so dot dot dot I suppose

Came up w my schedule for this year nd next year. Feels good to have a plan set nd everything. So annoyed w people though. So that’s cool. Kinda stressed about balancing these jobs nd school nd everything but it should all work out. Hoping for the best (:

Confused.

I feel so confused I feel like I have so much to figure out. But I already know what to do. I know I’m a strong person but I need to act like tht more. I wanna b more independent. Nd like rly find myself nd who I am. I’m still annoyed about everything that happened last week. Nd it still upsets me. But I’m happy about it. Because I’ve known all along tht it wasn’t right. But I think I’m done w guys for awhile. I jst wanna b friends nd shit cuz I rly kinda sick of the same old shit. I’m done letting people close enough to hurt me. I’m gonna b a bitch or something because I am wayy to nice. But I’m happy(: I’m gonna meet a ton more people nd jst b friends w them. I finally figured out my major tht I know I need to stick w. it kinda bugs me cuz the blood freaks me out but ik this is what I need to do. I need to focus on school a lot more nd get my shit together.

Christjna